Well...

I guess this is goodbye.

I know I said that I'd try and come back on during half-term, but I couldn't find the time, and I said that I'd post on the Monday we returned to school...well, it's Saturday of that same week. It should give you an indication of how busy I've been that Saturday afternoon is pretty the only time I actually can post to you. The whole point was for me to see if I could come back to Stardoll...but, well, I think my little experiment failed.

I've been kidding myself saying that I'm going to find time for Stardoll. In all honesty, a part of me just doesn't want to find it. I've logged in, replied to messages, logged out and then not remembered about Stardoll for a fortnight.

I never thought I'd find myself leaving Stardoll. I'm being serious. I've tried it so many times and come back after a few days, thinking "I miss it too much." Any spare second, I'd be on here, and I'd be able to imagine myself on here whilst in uni. I actually could. I'd log on to the laptop to do my school work and then end up spending about 2 hours on Stardoll instead. I'm not alone--I'm sure we've all done that at some point in our life! :P. I remember that I got so excited about receiving an invite to Royalty, and now, I'm happy being a Non-Superstar. In all honesty, I regret spending so much of my time on here, because I now realise that I have let more than 3 years of my life slip past me whilst spending so much time on here. I wish that I could take back the money I've lost on here, but it's never going to happen.

I think the big wake-up call for me about Stardoll was back in Summer, whilst I was off for about 2 weeks. Ever since then, Stardoll just hasn't been as appealing to me. I've said it before, I'll say it again; my Banner used to bombard your newsfeeds. Now, I barely post.

So...I guess this is farewell. I've just got too much going on. School, exams, and most importantly, with family and friends. Considering how addicted I was to Stardoll back in January, when Jenna offered me this post, I have to say that even I didn't see this coming. I was so excited that I'd got this opportunity--I've always loved SMW, and I think that if it wasn't for this blog, I would have been gone a long, long time ago. I know this is going to sound horribly cliche, but a part of SMW will always remain with me. The judging, entering polls and competitions and writing these posts.

There's things I'm not going to regret, and that's the fact that I've made some amazing friends on here. Some have left, some are still around. To name just a few, Nordwalde, Minnie (ILoveAnimals28), Filipa (Filipinhamaria), Brooke (Chicago3), Jenna, (Emorox4eva), Lilly (Lillyandmile), Mihaela (Avril14140), Electra (...Electra....), Robyn (Evermore1Girl) and Yaya (Yaya,B). I love all of them, even though I've never met them in person--I'd especially like to thank Robyn for putting up with all my Man United crazed stories. :').

And lastly, all of you followers. Everyone who's taken the time to read my posts and comment on them, the people who have made me banners and entered my polls, those of you who have commented in my GB with ways to improve the blog, and even the Anonymous commenter's who have posted both nice and not-so-nice things. I'll miss you all.

I want to say a BIG Thank You to all of you. If it wasn't for this blog, I would have gone long ago. But to be honest, I'm glad I stayed. It was an amazing experience, one I'll never forget. Thank You to everyone who commented me or congratulated me, or who has given me a Covergirl vote or commented in my GB, or voted for me in any other way. For any little thing--I appreciate it. :').

I'm not sure how long I'll be gone. I may check my messages once a week, but in all truth, until my real life settles down, I have no wish for Stardoll. My life isn't perfect, and I guess spending an hour or two on Stardoll could make me think it was. But just over a month ago, I realised that I'm missing too much. I need to be spending time with loved ones and doing things with them. 

I'm not saying that I wasn't addicted to Stardoll--of course I was. And at a point, I think we all have been. But I think my time on Stardoll has passed. I know I wasn't a big person on Stardoll, and I don't want to be because of all the hacking and spotlight and constant scrutiny that the so called 'elites' receive. I'm not a fan of the whole elite thing, and never have been. But for those who want to reach success on Stardoll...I hope you get it, but in an honest and fair way.

I have just one favour to ask; that you do not judge me on this post. That you do not think I'm seeking attention, nor that I am doing this without good reason.

Who knows? Maybe sometime in the future, I will come back to Stardoll. But currently, I find it unfair to leave all you followers with no explanation and expectations that I will no longer be able to fulfill. I'm happy I'm finally leaving, but at the same time, I wouldn't trade these ten months as an SMW staff member for anything.

 

Thank You.

An extra thank you if you read all of that ♥ ♥ ♥

I honestly will miss you all.

Love,

Sara

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PS: I will still be on Twitter (@SaraMUFC19) and Skype. (PwincessSara).